NIKKI Grahame asked Duncan James to be her sperm donor and desperately wanted to be a mum the Blue singer has revealed.
He said he begged the former Big Brother star to eat before she tragically died at the age of 38.
Nikki died on April 9 due to anorexia, the illness she had suffered with since she was six.
She had started her IVF journey before she died but fertility clinics had closed due to the pandemic.
Speaking to OK! magazine, Duncan remembered: "She said she wanted me to be her sperm donor.
“I remember speaking to her about it and she was like, 'Well, if you can't be my boyfriend, you can at least be my sperm donor, because I want you to be the daddy of my child.'
The Big Brother star, 38, was keen to have children and had been told her body was healthy enough as she said: "I've never had a period. My ovaries cannot produce eggs which means I cannot have children.
"I've enquired at a few clinics in London."
She had also shared her dreams of motherhood with New Magazine in 2019.
In 2019 Nikki spoke to Duncan about one day potentially being her sperm donor.
Duncan said to OK! Magazine said: "I loved Nikki. We just got on straight away. She'd put her arms around me and give me kisses and be like, 'Duncan, why are you gay? Please don't be gay.'
"I used to be like, 'Nikki, you know I love you.'"
"I was like, 'Nikki, you're so sweet.'
She was like, 'I'm so serious, I want to be a mummy.'"
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Nikki had hoped to fall in love, but had considered asking Duncan if that didn't happen by the time she turned 40.
She said: "Could you imagine?! How good would that be?"
"I'm so independent," she said. "I think I'd be such a good mum because I know I'm capable when I put my mind to it."
A fundraising campaign by friends to get Nikki treatment for her eating disorder was running before her death was announced on Saturday.
Nikki charmed the nation with her bubbly personality and honest humour.
Duncan said he would remember Nikki and all the happy times they shared.
"She really was a beautiful person and I was devastated to hear the news of her death."
"I've got so many great, fond memories of her. So many fun events we've been to together. So many times we hung out at parties or red carpet events and we'd always just end up spending the evening together having fun.
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