Billie Piper said she “needed to fall apart” after the breakdown of her marriage to DJ Chris Evans, after being “so tired” from finding fame and success at such a young age.
The 38-year-old actress opened up about her marriage to the radio DJ from 2001 to 2004 in an interview with Red Magazine.
She described her 20s as “wild” in reaction to being treated like a “flashy sales girl" in her youth.
She explained: "I really needed to fall apart in that sort of reckless 20s way.
"To not care about looking put-together every waking moment of my life or saying the wrong things as a role model to children."
Billie came to prominence as a singer at age 15 with her single Because We Want To, before later starring in Doctor Who, and Secret Diary of a Call Girl.
Billie said her early relationships were fuelled by an "extreme desire to feel loved and safe" coming from spending a lot of time alone as a child.
"I've (since) learned about attachment issues and co-dependency, which I never saw as a problem, until I did that work on myself," she revealed.
Billie made headlines when she eloped to Las Vegas to marry Chris Evans when she was just 18 years old, while he was 16 years her senior.
Their marriage only lasted three years but the pair are said to still be close friends with Billie comparing their relationship to “your university years”.
Speaking on David Tennant’s podcast in October, Billie said: “It was an incredible time and not to undermine our relationship because we also had a very loving relationship.
“It wasn't just, 'oh we're getting, going out, getting f****d'. We had a very caring, loving relationship.”
Billie Piper went on to marry Laurence Fox with whom she had two sons, Winston and Eugene, before divorcing in 2016.
She is now in a relationship with rockstar Johnny Lloyd and they share daughter Tallulah.
Billie said she does not know the key to her relationship with Johnny stating: “I think on some level, I’m always going to be interested in love in a way that throws logic to the floor.”
She continued: “Part of me doesn't ever just want to see it as this rational thing where I'm making sure I have date night on a Wednesday, although I think there are merits in doing that.”
"But the thought immediately makes me feel a bit heavy-hearted and bored. I don't know if I can ever really be fully practical and healthy around love.
She added: "(Happiness) is fleeting, but when it's happening, I like to be fully conscious of it and sit with it for as long as I can.
"In the past, people would say, 'Just go for a walk or look at the stream or watch the way the trees move', and I was so judgmental of that advice. Now, I realise it really does the trick."
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