Katie Price has revealed her terrifying battle with her mental health in a frank new documentary, Katie Price: Trauma And Me.
The star talks about her attempt at suicide, how she lives with PTSD, her daily battles with the “demon” inside her and how recent events have resulted in her kids being almost removed from her life.
Also for the first time, we hear from Katie’s stepdad who believes that Katie’s downfall all began after her divorce from Peter Andre.
The documentary follows Katie, 44, in the aftermath of her drink-driving crash last year and opens with her getting ready for court, where she narrowly avoided jail and was handed a 16-week suspended sentence and two-year driving ban.
But that wasn’t the trigger that kicked off Katie’s mental health battle, with her openly revealing it got far worse a few years before.
“I hit a severe depression a couple of years ago, depression on top of PTSD. I was suicidal, I didn’t want to be here,” she says.
Katie describes her mental health issues as a “demon in me”, saying, “When I’m having
a down moment it comes out. But I’ve got to keep it at bay because it knows. It got me one time when I was weak and it can always be there, it’s controlling it.”
Katie then details how she attempted to take her own life. She insists that the only thing that kept her alive was her children – Harvey, 20, Junior, 17, Princess, 15, Jett, nine, and Bunny, eight – as she says, “All I saw was the kids’ faces and I never want that to happen again.”
“The hardest thing I’ve had to deal with in the recent months is having limited access to some of my kids,” she continues. “Recent events have meant I’m seeing my youngest children less and the relationship between me and their father has broken down.”
Katie adds, “It’s not good for my mental health and it’s certainly not good for their mental health. They should be having their mum in their life. At the moment I’m stuck in this rut with Jett and Bunny and it is frustrating for me.
“You know, seven months, how has it even got to this? It’s heartbreaking and I just wish it wasn’t like this. All I can do is hope that this won’t be forever.”
The relationship between Katie and her ex-husband Kieran Hayler, 35, worsened when the former glamour model breached her restraining order against Kieran’s fiancée Michelle Penticost by sending her a text message branding her a “gutter s**g”.
Despite being regretful for her message, Katie does go on to admit that she finds it hard to see Michelle, who shares one-year-old son Apollo with Kieran, “playing happy families” with her children on social media.
Showing viewers a photo of Michelle and her youngest daughter Bunny in matching outfits, Katie says, “Michelle’s posed with Bunny in a matching outfit. When your head’s all like this and they’re playing happy families with my kid, that’s enough for a mother to go through, let alone everything else I’m trying to go through.”
Katie’s mum Amy, 69, – who is living with a terminal lung illness – and stepdad Paul also open up about their daughter’s struggles in the one-off show.
Paul tearfully tells cameras that he thinks her mental health struggles date back to 2009,
when she split from Pete.
He says, “I think her downfall has to start from the divorce with Pete. From that moment, all she got was backlash, backlash, backlash and I find it quite hurtful. I’m not saying she’s an angel, but I think she deserves better. I can understand why she’s got mental health [struggles]. It’s hard.”
“Kate is good at hiding her feelings, we knew she had loads and loads of problems,” Amy adds. “So when she had this accident the first thing she said to me was, ‘Why have I survived?’ I’m not sure if it was a suicide attempt, but you just realise how delicate she is.
“It was a cry for help, really. As a mum it’s devastating because you never want to see your child go through this and you do question yourself.”
Speaking exclusively to OK! a source close to Katie told us why she felt like now was the right time to talk so openly. “Katie wasn’t ready to speak about this before as it was sensitive and she feared being judged. She didn’t want to let her children or family down.
“Katie hopes this documentary will allow the trolls to see her for who she really is and think twice when they are being hateful.
“Katie’s new documentary is a very sensitive one for her. No one sees the struggle that she goes through daily and it’s time she got the chance to show the world the ‘real’ Katie Price.”
For support on suicide and suicidal thoughts, visit the Samaritans website or call their 24/7 helpline on 116 123.
Katie Price: Trauma And Me airs on Thursday 8 September at 9pm on Channel 4.
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